I don’t need a lifetime
If a moments all you’ve got
But if you choose to stay
I’ll make it worth the while
I don’t need a lifetime
If a moments all you’ve got
But if you choose to stay
I’ll make it worth the while
You remind me of my favorite song from high schoolThe one I swore would be played at my wedding someday
Everyone claimed that it was a phase
And well they were right
I stopped listening to that song years ago
Just as the memories have now faded into distant sonnets of what used to be
I could still remember every word if only someone would play it
But it will never be the same
I used to look at you and see the future
Filled with explosions of laughter
And calm kisses that turned pretty pink
And those cliche rainy days where we’d stay inside the house wasting time with absolutely nothing
But also everything
And most importantly each other
But honestly I never have really liked the rain for the way it made the days seem lonely
but I’d hoped that maybe we could change that
You grew lonely
I only heard from you when the silence was so deafening that you could no longer hear your thoughts
I’ve always wondered why I was the cure to your problems
You were never too sure if I was enough to hold onto
But also never willing to let go of what could be
You weren’t always the best at making decisions
And I always did tell you that I wouldn’t chase after you
But it never stopped me
I ran
Ran hard
But running was never in my field of expertise
And you always bragged about how many miles you could go on end
In the end
I couldn’t keep up
I didn’t know we weren’t on the same track
You were a train
Close enough to encounter
But too far to embrace
And I was simply a cable car
Hitched on when convenient
I grew tired
Of empty promises
Kind of like the piggy bank I could never quite keep full when I was little
You would cash me in like the pennies, nickels, and dimes I had as a child
Basically worthless but enough to satisfy any adolescent heart
Too naive to understand value
I don’t think either of us ever really valued anything when it came to each other
You were a maze to me
Finding pleasure in your pathways
But getting lost all along the way
And never truly discovering the finish line
And I was a puzzle to you
Only being pieced together when you had time to fit a part of the picture together
But never fully invested
I sat on your kitchen table for years before we both realized that this stagnant game of figuring each other out had to end
Just like that song
It was never meant to play forever
But it had a place
And a time
And a season
That already fulfilled its purpose
And I think I found some kind of comfort within your melody
And you say inside my lyrics to hide from your fear of change
All along I knew that for you I was just a noise that filled in your background when the loneliness set in
And for me you were someone to try to love through my own insecurities
Both perverted intentions of what a love story is supposed to be
And sometimes I still miss you
So I’ll put on that age old song and sing every word by heart
But almost as soon as it plays
It ends
And by now it’s been weeks since I’ve thought about you
Until today that is
But I hope that someday when you think about me you’ll smile and you’ll hum our melody once more for old times sake
And I hope someday I’ll remember only the lyrics that brought love to life within these ears
Because after all I do believe at some point our season made sense
And it’s a funny thing how time never stops where we most want it to
But
My friend
My sweet melody
You may be a memory
But I think that you’re for keeping
Even long after the song has stopped playing
I hope someday
We’ll both find just exactly what it was we were looking for